So I am finally facing the fact that I am not happy with my life! It didn't just start overnight and it really didn't start after one thing! It slowly became this black cloud that hangs over me 24 hours a day! I am realizing that a lot of my stress and anxiety comes from my idea that I need to be a pleaser and have acceptance! What I have found is that I am so concerned about others and making them happy, or like me, or anything else for that matter is exhausting, tiring, and down right toxic! I am on a new plan! I have started this program called the Daniel plan at church! I am going back to church! I am slowly reminding myself that I do the best I can everyday and if people aren't happy with that, then that is their problem! I have two post-it's on my window in my bathroom! They ready you are beautiful you are the child of God! And a pray that states dear lord please fill my cup! Because there are so many times when it gets empty and I am pulled in so many different directions! It's still a struggle but it is a nice reminder every morning to ready these statements ad u actually start to believe!!